Helen Atkins wrote:

I disagree that Avon was a winner in Rumours of Death. He thought at the

beginning of the episode that someone had been willing to die under torture rather than turn him in.<

And knowing the truth at least relieved him of his guilt over that. Despite what he tells Jenna in Trial, I think he is capable of feeling guilt.

At the end, he realised he had never been loved at all. This obviously had

a severe impact on his view of himself (ie unloveable)<

I can't see that being an issue for him. Avon never gives the impression of caring about what other people think of him. IMO he prefers *not* being loved, because love causes the kind of emotional attachment he seems very eager to avoid.

and of other people (there are no exceptions, no one is trustworthy).<

A very safe philosophy, in his case, considering what happens to the few people he *does* begin to trust :-)

Marian